so depressed when the financial manager of our company had some words on me.
so boring when the mountain-like and repetitious work goes on and on.
so uncomfortable when my classmates in college days showed me their happy life in those universities like sjtu which i ought to fight for but failed because of my hesitation and self-distrustful. and now they are going in for their master`s degrees.
so miserable when my parents told me millions of times that doing this kind of job is wasting my youth,and blamed me that i had never thought about my future life. what`s more is that i think they are right!
i have a dream that one day i could live in a cozy house with a excellent husband who succeed in career ,loves his family , and two lovely kids around me.
i have a dream that one day i could travel lots of places where there are fascinating landscape , attractive couture and adorable people.
i have a dream that one day i could do a little help to my country,China, to be a more democratic and free country , then all of us can live in happiness.
yes , dear, you are right, just doing this, i could never achieve those dreams, just doing this , i have the most valuable time of my life waste away.
realize this key point,i cant help to make some changes as soon as possible.
but , honestly, the first step is really hard to take. how to make it perfectly so that i could not feel so guilt, is still a question!!!damn t!